I usually start off a post with a story or a relative comparison…but not today. I am going to dive right into this with both feet and be completely honest with you. I need goals for my prayer life. My prayer life needs to have goals set for it.
Prayer is hard for me.
Yes, I said it. I have a hard time with my prayer life, but not prayer that I offer up for others. I have a hard time praying for me and about me. I struggle with praying through my own heart issues. I shy away from talking to God about me.
I think it is because I have been emotionally guarded since before I was even old enough to know what emotionally guarded meant. I have always been the kind of girl who kept her “real” feelings to herself. If I did not like something, was upset by something or thought something was being handled incorrectly, I so often kept my opinion to myself.
I am submissive. I force myself, my feelings, my behavior and my outward appearance to fit into the situation. Asking God in prayer to change things would probably be wrong, I have always thought. I ask for His will to be done in my life and this is what is happening. Therefore, this must be His will.
I am accepting. I do not fight against the things I believe I can not change. I try to find contentment in every state I am in. I feel convicted not to always strive for contentment. Paul was the preaching Rock Star of the Bible and he claimed contentment in all kinds of horrible circumstances. Philippians 4:11. I should follow his example.
I am afraid of spiritual feelings and emotions. I have no problems being authentic with you about my past hurts, my fears, my biggest regrets or my failures. I consider those to be physical feelings about my earthly life. When we start talking about the spiritual feelings of my heart life, though, I all of the sudden have nothing to say.
Y’all this struggle is real!
I have recently started a prayer challenge different from anything I have ever been involved with before. This challenge has forced me to stop and really evaluate what I want my prayer life to look like. What do I want my prayer life to be about? What are my goals for my prayer life future? How do I want to respond to what God reveals to me through prayer? Because the truth is, I can not continue on my current path and ever expect to have the close relationship with God that I am so hungry for.
For every woman out there looking for a living, breathing prayer life and relationship with God, I would like to share five goals with you that I am going after. These five goals are my “prayer life” goals for the unforeseeable future and I hope they will become yours too!
**Prayer Life Goals**
1)Brokenness. I want brokenness before the Lord while in prayer. I want to get beyond the emotional barrier I have built around my feelings and just expose myself to His love, grace and mercy. I am a sinner and I want my time of confession to be genuine. I have always been touched by the woman who anointed Jesus feet with oil in Luke 7:36-50. She came into His presence just like we enter His presence in prayer. This woman wept, gave of her own body (her hair) to clean up her tears, humbled herself enough to kiss Jesus’ feet and then sacrificed her costly oil for Him.
2)Connection. I love connecting with the people in my life. How much more would I love a true, deep connection with my Savior as well? My issue has always been that I have not felt like I am doing prayer “right”. I will really throw myself into it but when I don’t walk away with that glorified Charlton Heston look I start believing Satan’s lie that I am not meant for that kind of deep connection with Christ. Oh yes, Satan has fed me that garbage many times and I have believed it! Let me ask you, though, when have you felt that you were more deeply connected with someone? Was it after you had spent a week talking to them daily or after you had spent maybe six months talking to them daily? Real connection and depth take a little time. Remember, our connection with God is a relationship and it requires time, attention and goals.
3)Intimacy. I am not married and have never been, so the topic of intimacy is a little foreign to me. I have always had my opportunities in life for privacy and chances to hide my true self. Not that I was ever hiding anything bad or wrong, but what I did and did not want to expose about myself was my choice. However, it does not work that way with God. He sees all of us, He knows all of us and He wants you and me to open up all of us to Him. As Christians, we are the Bride of Christ. We have been betrothed to One Husband (2 Corinthians 11:2) and we must become one with Him.
4)Awareness. My recent time in Psalms has reminded me of one thing…David and God covered a lot of ground together! So often, David is recounting to God what He has done for him in his life. Whether it was protecting him from his enemies or encouraging his spirit, David was always aware of God’s presence in his daily life and quick to praise God for it. As an act of thanksgiving, I want to be mindful and set a goal to always be aware of God’s presence in both my prayer time and my daily life. I believe that making a conscious effort to be aware will help us not only to recognize God’s presence but it will help us to make a mental note of it to call back to Him in prayer later. Psalm 73:23-28.
5)Joy. I want to have a spirit of joy during my prayer time. Early morning time with Jesus is hard. No, early mornings are hard! However, I know me and early mornings are the best time for me to have prayer without interruption or distraction. I want my feet to hit the floor every morning with joy and expectancy not obligation and a secret feeling of dread. I am finding that waking up earlier is not as hard as I thought it would be, but I definitely want to go one step further than just responding to the alarm clock. My desire is to greet God every morning with the same joy and enthusiasm as I would a close friend. Joy comes with the morning light! Psalm 30:5
This world is loud. Our schedules are busy. We have problems, worries, stress, illness and drama. There are so many things to keep us from having the deep, active prayer life that we yearn for. It must be our goal to really dig into a consistent prayer life and allow God to override the “things” that are pulling us away from Him.
Let’s discover or re discover our confidence and value in Christ by spending time talking to Him and listening to Him. Prayer is such a gift! As sisters in Christ, let’s join together to kick the habits that keep us away from our time with Jesus. Let’s tear down the emotional walls, stop accepting whatever comes our way and end the fear. Let’s establish goals in our prayer lives and chase after them. We are victorious in Christ and He will not allow anything to keep us from Him.
And you will seek Me and find Me, when you search for Me with all your heart. Jeremiah 29:13 NKJ