Oh, the crud! Don’t we all love it! Webster’s defines crud as a substance that is disgusting or unpleasant, typically because of it’s dirtiness. I could not agree more, especially on the unpleasant part! I have been hacking up a lung, losing my voice, running a fever and blowing my nose endlessly this week. I have had shots, antibiotics, steroids, you name it. If you have read some of my other blogs, you may remember that I have a lot of allergies. Well, allergy sufferers and medication do not mix. However, my cough has been so bad that I decided to take my chances earlier tonight and try some cough syrup for the first time in five years…..BAD IDEA! Currently, my face is lit up so bright red that I could single handedly land an air plane between two dark mountains in the Rockies!
Being sick can bring out a different side in me. As a general rule, I am always right on top of things. I see things as very black and white and I make decisions both big and small with ease. However, let me get sick, and I can not even decide whether I want to put the ice or the liquid in my cup first. Clearly, it does not matter, but in my hazy, feverish state, little things become catastrophically big deals! And we’re just talking about water, here. You should have seen me at the grocery store two days ago!
When I am sick, I am always blessed with a great care giver. My mom is the best nurse that ever walked the earth and I love her very much. However, she always goes into full blown triage mode! She starts asking me about my symptoms and “on a scale of one to ten” questions. It drives her crazy, but my answer is always, “I don’t know.” I can not make a decision or a good judgement call on myself when I feel bad. I have no idea how to pinpoint or describe what is going on because decision making abilities have left me. I am not at my best when I am sick and that is how I show it…by not knowing where I stand.
Although, this crud has been miserable, it has really opened up my eyes this week about myself. Maybe you can relate to this too. It appears to me that in my time of crisis, (not that the common cold is a crisis but you see what I mean!) I am not in a place to alter what I already know to be true. In other words, if I know what good health is supposed to feel like while I am healthy, I am not going to forget that feeling and description just because am sick. If I could not distinguish good health, I would never recognize sickness. However, in sickness, I can not muster up new thoughts or opinions because I am not at my best. I can only rely on what I already know to be true. Hence, I do not feel like I should, but do not ask me to explain it? Crazy, huh? Maybe I need a psychologist more than a nurse!
This whole concept got me started thinking about the Christian walk. In our trial and crisis, do we have a hard time explaining, relaying and speaking the truth of God over ourselves and our situations? Do we become muddled in our understanding of what God is in and to us because we are distracted by our circumstances? That is a dangerous place to be. It is in that place of grayness that we can be led to believe and accept all kinds of lies from the enemy.
My challenge to you tonight is to make a decision. Make a decision now, sister! Settle in you mind and in your heart the truths of God. Because, just like me in my time of sickness, I can tell you clearly what wellness feels like. I have the truth of wellness etched on my mind and it is my comfort in my time of illness. I have hope that I will return to that place one day. Burn the truths of God on your mind and heart also. Hide His truths in your heart so that they can reaffirm and encourage you in your time of need.
Do not wait until you are in need of God’s comfort to start seeking His truths. Now, please do not misunderstand- there is nothing wrong at all with turning to the Word your time of need . We are instructed to do just that. Hebrews 4:15-16 For we do not have a High Priest who can not sympathize with our weakness, but was in all points tempted as we are, yet without sin. Let us therefore come boldly to the throne of grace, that we may obtain mercy and find grace to help in time of need. What I am suggesting is in difficult times, deception is such an easy trap for us to fall into. There is nothing the enemy would love more than to make us feel like we are on shaky ground with God while we are already so vulnerable. Do not be a victim of his lies and destruction, sisters. Do not wait until things are at their worst to start establishing some parameters of truth. Do it now while you are strong and clear headed. God wants only the best for His children.
I guess what I am saying is, do not wait until you are starving to start planting a garden. Sure you will yield food….eventually. But what will sustain you right here and right now? God promises that in this life, we will have troubles. They are inevitable, just like hunger. I want to challenge you to not wait until your troubles show up to start establishing a game plan of God’s truth I your heart. You may find that route to be difficult depending on what your specific circumstances are. Instead, read, study and pray now. Get to know this great God who is the strong hold of your life. Hide Him in your heart while things are going well and you are not being thrown around by emotion. This world can give us a lot of sinking sand so make a decision about The Rock of Your Salvation today. What does His word promise, who does He say He is and do you really trust Him. I can promise you, if you face any crisis with the decision of God in your heart, your crisis will it not be much of a crisis anymore. What is true trouble when we are standing in the truth and promise of the Great I Am?
John 16:33- I have told you these things, so that in me you may have peace. In this world you will have trouble. But take heart! I have overcome the world!
I love you, sisters in Christ! Take care of your hearts and if you haven’t already, go get a flu shot!