It was a cold, dreary January day. Christmas was barely over. Our tree had not even come down yet. However, that magical, anything can happen Christmas feeling was slowly leaving me as I walked into the massive health clinic. I rode the elevator to my floor, signed in and took a seat toward the middle of the huge lobby area.
I had mixed emotions about this place.
On one hand, I was so grateful to have such an amazing health facility taking care of me. I was blessed. My doctor was not even taking any more patients when he agreed to take me. He was an incredible physician with a tremendous amount of knowledge and compassion. His staff was so kind and efficient. His office was home to the latest medical equipment. I was so blessed to call this place my healthcare hub.
On the other hand, though, I did not want to be there today or ever. I did not want to be the carrier of the disorder that brought me to this facility every six months. I wanted my health back. I wanted my life back.
This was not part of the plan!
I had so many ambitions and so many dreams. I expected to be married by now. I planned on being a mother to two girls and one boy. I was going to take my family’s business to the next level. I had the secret dream to follow in my father’s footsteps and get involved in politics. I had so much I wanted to do. Yet, here I was….sitting all alone in a medical facility waiting to hear my name called.
I felt tears in the backs of my eyes. Something about being in this place always made me feel so hopeless.
I swallowed hard and grabbed some gum from my purse. I was determined to woman up and not get all “woe is me” this time.
I picked up a book I had brought with me. While I was waiting my turn, I planned to work on a book review for a blogger friend of mine. As I flipped back through the chapters to remind myself of the details of the story, I was stunned by the “now what” experience that both the writer of this book and I had faced.
Plans that were derailed. Loved ones that were taken from this world. Tangible things that were removed from our lives. This was not what either of us had wanted or expected from a loving, merciful Father.
How Should We Handle Our “Now What” Moments?
I have handled mine in all kinds of ways. I have ignored them, cried over them, ran from them, despised them and sometimes just sat in the fetal position in a corner.
Am I alone here or can you relate?
Now What moments are meant to send us back to the drawing board. They cause us to really search our hearts and motives. They help us to determine what is truly important and what is not.
Now What moments remind us that we do not have it all under control and that we should not want to. Listen, when I am faced with a confusing, difficult or uncomfortable situation, there is nothing that would make me happier than to pass that issue on to someone else. I want it off my plate.
Jesus tells us that is fine with Him. He wants us to turn it over to Him. Only in that move of faith can we really experience Him working on our behalf and proving Himself faithful to us.
Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart and you will find rest for your souls. For my yoke is easy and my burden is light. Matthew 11:28-30 NIV
Here’s the deal:
I have been convicted by this thought for over a week now! I would never consider cutting my own hair. I would never try to do my own taxes. Often, I do not even cut my own toe nails!
Yet, I try to get my life back on track by myself after those Now What moment.
For me, it is all about control.
Well, Sister, I have good news for both of us! If our hearts belong to Jesus and we have made Him Lord of our lives, then He is already involved. He has seen everything. He has already crafted the perfect solution. He is bringing every little detail together in our favor. Yet, Jesus is a gentleman. He does not force anything on us. He provides us with a free will. We have to be the one to surrender our crazy control freak ways and just back up and let Him work.
I read a verse earlier this week that has really moved my heart pertaining to this subject. It has run through my mind and been a part of my prayers for days now.
Matthew 28:18 – Then Jesus came to them and said, “All authority in Heaven and on earth has been given to me.”
God the Father gave Jesus all authority.
ALL OF IT!
Jesus has authority over our problems both big and small. Jesus has authority over our loss. Jesus has authority over our credit card debt. Jesus has authority over our poor health. There is nothing that crosses our paths that Jesus is not in charge over.
I am so vulnerable to this way of thinking. When things are completely derailed and not at all what I expected or wanted, the last thing I want to do is surrender my mess to someone else.
My mess is embarrassing.
My mess is private.
I can fix my mess better than anyone else.
Or…my favorite one,
Things are enough of a mess right now. Why would I let anyone else get involved?
So I would like to challenge you this week.
What are you holding back form Jesus? What is going on in your world that you are trying to manage on your own? What are you doing to handle your surprise Now What moment?
Girl, quit running around in circles, exhausting yourself and ruining your mascara!
Let it go! Give that grief, fear, disappointment, bitterness and hopelessness over to the One who has authority over it. Watch those issues start coming under submission to Jesus. He wants to help His daughters. Move your hands and let Him!
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